Live Your Life!!!

Assalamualaikum Mr. Diary!!!
Missing you beybehhh...

Hey,
Is it hard to make a living?
I mean,
Do People often have this problem, confuse on what they wanna do in future?
What best for themselves?
Or, is it just me?
Those who try to start a new move, do they think about what will happen next?
Why am I doing this?
Will this end up with a good result in future?
Can I survive with this thing?

Lately, I have this state of confusion about my future.
Sometimes, when I tell you all this things,
they just reflect me back.
Should I give up my first ambition of being lecturer and start a new life?
Should I continue with this course?
If I change, can I survive?
Is it just a dream or illusion or thought?

When I see how smooth others life be, I kind of jealous of them.
Yeah, apparently, it's normal as my life is not as great as them.
I'm not saying my life is kind of messy,
but it seems like I'm in the process of finding my identity.

I know, every time i reflect, it will turns to basic.

WHEN WE HAVE A GREAT RELAY WITH THE ALMIGHTY, EVERYTHING WILL BE JUST FINE

People say that are a lot of time to think about this.

But when I think about this again and again, it's like overthinking,

it makes me scared.

Scared if I can't make the correct decision,

Scared of turning my life upside down,

Scared of doing the wrong things.

There is so many theory about life in my head that pop out suddenly,

Like, alottttt.

That's all for today, thanks anyway :)

Relationship

Assalamualaikum Mr. Mr.
Wahh, it's A NEW YEAR!!!!!
Happy New Year for you MR. Diary...HAHA!

You know, I've just realised how fragile a relationship is.
Ahhh, such a killer statement right!!! Well, yeah, that's it.

To make this into story, I asked my best friend about our relationship, well basically friendship.

Did she ever imagine how long our friendship will be?

This is what she told me:

"Intan, I've imagine our friendship is all about.
And I think we might be friend in such a long time, BUT we will be separated.
You know, one day we will find new friends that we're comfortable with..even better.
Right now we are comfortable with each other, but then what about next time.
You've mentioned before, when we're really close with a person, we will get hurt.
Then, let's use that quote to reflect our friendship.
Well, basically I don't want that situation happens to us, that's why when there is something
happen, and I'm the one who in fault, I will apologize to you straight away.
Based on my experiences and observation, that kind of situation might happen to us.
Even now, between us and Moon, we're facing the phase where conflict happens.
I'm not changing, i will be the way I am now. But, most of my friends, they have changed.
A lot.

When I reflect the conversation we've discussed, I kind of agree with her.
Even me, myself, I couldn't maintain my relationship with those old friends.
I couldn't blame them who leave me when me, myself did not put the effort to cherish the friendship,
right?

A friend cannot be considered as a friend until he is tested in 3 occassions:

1) In time of need.
2) Behind your back.                         By: Ali bin Abi Talib
3) After your death.


My opinion towards this discussion:
To maintain a relationship, we both have to strive for it. Not just a party doing all the works. That is not enough.
Nothing is impossible.
Allah will always bless a good thing.
Believe in that.
What can I say about our discussion just now, my friend is really matured, compared to me. Hmmm

p/s Babe, let's maintain for our relationship, no matter how. Aminn.